I’ve been married to the same woman for 40 years. We’ve been through our entire adult lives together, faced every challenge imaginable, and we’re still deeply in love and committed to one another.
I couldn’t be happier, except for one little area of our lives. Our sex life, or rather, the complete absence of a sex life.
See, my wife had a complete hysterectomy recently. Even though she’s on hormone replacement therapy, she just has no libido left. Doctors have informed us of all the options available to restore a normal, healthy sexual experience with each other, but with every effort, it just seems to make her push back even more. My friends have all told me that what we’re going through is natural, normal, and to just give it time. I have, but there’s been no change. Honestly, I don’t want to keep pressuring my wife – it isn’t fair to her – and I love and respect her far too much to even think about an affair. But even us “old geezers” still have needs.
So, one night I was up late. My wife had gone to bed hours earlier, and after a few drinks I was really in the mood. Knowing that waking her up to ask for something she didn’t want – even if she did give into me out of feelings of guilt or obligation – just wasn’t right. I’m too old to use the internet to browse through porn sites, and I’d probably end up getting a virus that my grandson would have to come over and fix. He’d know what I’d done, and I’d probably never hear the end of it, even though everyone would doubt that I would have ever surfed the net for sex. But the embarrassment, alone, would just compound the hurt and frustration.
I did enter a few keywords into the browser on my phone, though, and came across a link for a free chatsex line! All I really wanted was to hear a sexy woman’s voice talking about how much she wanted and needed me – like my wife used to do. I was immediately connected with a real human being, and we shared an incredible night of intimate talk! Truly, it healed my heart, and made me feel like a man again – which was what I needed to keep up my strong, supportive, loving role while my wife went through the celibate role she needed.
I didn’t ever tell my wife about the phone sex. I know she’d understand, but that might be just another burden for her to bear. I’ve never called in again, either. But that one night, that very special and intimate conversation I shared with a stranger, did so much to save me!
